So the past few days have really taken a toll on me... I feel like my life has taken a 360. Its so hard living in this small town. Everyone talks and it seems like everything always leads me back down a road to an ex. I've tried everything to deal with this, talked to my friend Wendy, cried, talked to the ex, search Ravelry for cool stuff to knit and even worked on my Secret Garden Tam. It just seems like I can't shake it.... way too much for me to handle. I'm sure it will pass in a couple of days but for now I'm trying to write this out so I can feel a little better.
Well has this helped? Nope not much.
In every situation I can keep my head up and find something to smile about... but with this, I'm not sure how to deal.
I just wish I could settle down with someone that I love and that loves me, have a family and have a nice normal everyday life that involves arguing about bills and whose turn it is to wash the dishes. Being single isn't what is all cracks up to be.
So enough of that... I guess I just need to go to sleep and wake up to a new day hopefully better than the last three.